Friday, December 19, 2008
So, my first post of next semester! (I know its not technically next semester, but I've already exceeded the requirement for semester 1, so I think this could fairly go on next semester, right Jenny????????)
We had our read through/ cast meeting today, and I'm a bit disappointed by what this show might become. Mrs. Poletti is very focused on plot, and is deleting songs that don't advance it (like, everything....cb barely has a plot)
Including Beethoven Day, Glee Club, and very very likely Book Report, which were my three favourites, but I'm more concerned about her possibly cutting Philosophy, My Blanket and Me, and Little Known Facts. I know and understand her focus on the story line, but cb is a character play, and we could make these numbers AMAZING. Is honestly, since Charlie Brown is basically the plot, taking all those other songs away would just make it the Charlie Brown Show, no other characters excepts as background singers and a few monologues. Oddly, enough the rights totally allow cutting it, as long as exceeds 45 minutes.
Luckily, Mrs. Poletti welcomes argument, so I'm currently writing a disertation as to why my song needs to stay, I really hope I can convince her, I was really excited about singing...
I'm still sad about those other numbers....*sigh*
I'm also angsting over my governor's school audition-the dance section, as I've lamented in almost all of my posts, kills. And their limits on picking monologues are impossible (less so that last year, still) nothing preceding 1970, no GB Shaw, Tennessee Williams, Niel Simon, Shakespeare, etc etc etc. Cannot be from a monologue book, musical, screenplay, must be age/gender/race appropriate, both monologues and transitions must be under 3 minutes. Yay?
And there are 1,000,000,000,000,000,000s of kids auditioning, including those annoying triple-threat dance, act, sing kids are deify themselves because of it-types. Love them....
Do I even have a chance?
Measuring life in love at.12:55 PM
Friday, December 12, 2008
Just kidding? They put up the Cast List a day early...I'm Linus! I knew it....
I'm excited just to be in it, although I really wanted Lucy. I'm just a little intimidated, the part seems really low for my high-mezzo voice, and I'm really feminine-just with my mannerisms and walk and etc
Mary Fran and my fellow cast members reassured me that Linus was probably gay anyway and my feminitity shouldn't be and issue, but I'm just worrying if I can pull it off
My casting thus far in theatre is rather interesting- I'm either a nerd or a creeper...in every single time-
Bernice- morbid drunk - creep
Margie- stalker teen- creep
Prof. Willard- professor of geology- NERD
Linus-self explanatory- nerd
Macbeth witch- again, self explanatory-creepier than anything
Lost Boy - misc, but really there were no other roles for me, esp. after my wretched audition
Amarylis- STALKER- creep
MSBB- creepy southern hick
the 5/6 grade parts were too insignificant for me to have a recognizable stereotype
and Jenny says she doesn't type cast..:P
Measuring life in love at.9:34 PM
Wednesday, December 10, 2008
I can't sleep! I'm tooooo nervous/anxious/excited
I really hope I got in
today was better- I sounded fine on the song and only partially lost it and my scene were fun. but I didn't read for Lucy ONCE.
Which was disappointing, but really I just one to get in
but who knows how the casting will go
So many people could potentially get in or not
I have no idea
but I really want to get in!
and I reaallllly want to be Lucy...but those chances don't look good
I'm also concerned about singing alto parts, I'm a mezzo, and a very high one at that
I can do Shroeder (sortof), but Linus is pretty low...
so who knows!? I'm just afraid my acting and singing won't match up and I won't work for any parts
at all
nada
that would be a nightmare
after all of this
godddddd. only 36(ish) more hours until I know.....
AIEEE.
Measuring life in love at.11:16 PM
Monday, December 8, 2008
i cannot believe I am actually auditioning. Really, it doesn't make sense to set myself up for failure and stress. I know, if Erin Fischer and I am aiming for the same part, there is absolutely no possible way that I'd get it. None, Zip, Nada. I really don't want to audition, I feel like I'm just going to make a fool of myself and completely screw up. Perhaps this is fate, perhaps I really don't need to be doing this. I don't like I offer anything to this play and as much as I'd absolutely love to be in it, I don't think it is feasible. I did what I claimed and somehow miraculously thought I wouldn't do: I got my hopes up. For a few deluded seconds, I thought I had a chance... It only requires belting and yelping, no real singing, there isn't that much competition, I've paid my dues, etc...... That is all crap, and somewhere, deep down, I knew it. I am really really tempted to simply go home and not audition...I feel like I'm about to throw up. I know this is a silly thing to tear myself up over, especially since I was (or should've been) aware of my fate this entire time. I know there will be other shows, but if I make high school plays, how will I ever survive theatre elsewhere?I honestly don't know what to do, I just really don't want to have to deal with this over and over again. Whenever I'm acting on stage, I'm in an entirely different state of mind, I'm elated and completely at peace, and this horribly tense feeling is completely erased from my memory, and I can't imagine doing anything else with my life. Yet now I'd easily just relinquish all this deluded dreams of pursing theatre and hoping to make something of it. I really just don't know what to do....
Measuring life in love at.12:54 PM
Sunday, December 7, 2008
AHHHH! TOMORROW!
I'M FREAKING OUT....I strained my voice quite a bit on friday when I was practicing, and it hasn't sounded or felt the same since. I'm spritzing gallons of zicam and I've probably had 50 cough drops total, and throat is still scratchy. And in case you couldn't tell, I'm CRAZYYYYY NERVOUS. I really want to be in this play, its all I can think about, I dreamed about it last night.
But I don't know if I will, I really wish I knew if I had a legitimate chance of getting Lucy.....
I know I don't have a chance of going to GSFTA, that dance section kills...oh well
Meanwhile, my Thespian Exec board campaign is going well, I'm running as ANNigo Montoya, and we're passing out Princess Bride propaganda and we're writing a skit w/ all the characters. It should be fantastic, although my dad is angry (??) about it. He claims colleges won't care and its taking awway from more "useful" outlets. Whatever. I'll just prove him wrong...
Well, I need to go over my monologue over and over and over and over and over and over and over again. Messing up the vocal portion is more or less expected, but there is no excuse for the monologue. God, I can't stop thinking about it. I have no idea how I'm going to get anything done...
Measuring life in love at.10:34 AM
Friday, December 5, 2008
Ohhhhhhh my gawd.....only 2 more days!?
I'm sooooo worried
I reallly want to be in Charlie Brown, and I know my monologues and I'm constantly belting (or, trying to belt) out the Lucy parts
I'm concerned, as of now I have Lucy's queen monologue
but what if that isn't good enough?
its very simple..but isn't that the point?
To show my ability to be a big character
and I really want to do Doctor is In, because it shows Lucy's sassy, obnoxious character
moreso that Little Known Facts and Shroeder
and I can't belt out that last note of LKF for very long
grrrr
so complicated
And I'd so much rather me in this than Safely Home
really
and Lucy is SUCH a fun part! Like, more fun that being a nun
She's sooo over-the-top and arrogant and obnoxious and fun and gahhhhhhd. I need this role
Like really, and the singing isn't hard, its just belting and yelping and squawking
But I'm going to be so nervous
I'm nervous right now
typing this
aieeee.
so nervous
I have a sinking feeling that I'm kidding myself chasing a big part
but I love this
and if I'm genuinely no good at acting, and this wasn;t for me, I'd know by now, right??
right!?!?!?!
right!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!
ahhhh!!!!!!!
Measuring life in love at.7:04 PM
Wednesday, December 3, 2008
So, Kallen and I frreeeaaaakkkked about auditions today- guess I'm not the only one nervous
I'm just glad that we're not competing for something as usual
And although there is no one (that I know of) chasing after Lucy, the very thought of that makes me tense and anxious
and when you really think about it, there are 100,000,000,000 things that could go wrong at an audition. I always knew that, but avoided thinking about it when the thought arose, mostly because if I began cataloguing potential failures before/during an audition I'd probaby have a panic attack. But seriously, I could start off on the wrong tune, end on the wrong tune, forget my monologue, my name (like Talking With...!) I could recite my monologue too quickly, I could forget to breath, I coul damage my voice, I could totally butcher the monologue, I could drop the energy at the ends of lines, I could just not be at all funny or moving or inspiring or decent, I could be very obviously nervous (shaking, shaky voice), I could forget to support my voice and end up breathy and off, I could be overdone and fake, I could look like I'm trying to hard (although I likely am)...
I could do some many things to completely soil the audition, and the odds are against me
as they are with Gov. School...we'll see
Measuring life in love at.3:30 PM
Ann
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